Wednesday, August 25, 2010


"The long sufferings under the Tsars were used in the same way and for the same purpose as the scalpings of white women and children had been used by Americans; they were used to organize people into fighting units, into embryos of the national army and the national police." -fredy perlman, on the continuing appeal of nationalism

the unavoidable conclusion: that anyone who has a "solution", who wants to "make the world a better place", is almost guaranteed to make it worse. the point is not to save the world, let it die. take it off the endless gratuitous life-support of our 'goodwill' which should be revealed for what it is: our addiction to present conditions, our inability to function outside its fundamental framework. hence the endless lists of plans for improvement which constitute the jurisidictional blueprints of so many vigilante, provisional forces controlling every breach like antibodies of domination. hence the inverse "slave" morality as a homeopathy for the possibility of amoral disorder; it provides the guns and badges from behind which the auxiliaries will reach even those that the state can't; and all the visionaries filling suggestion boxes with ideas on how to prolong the catastrophe of the economy [how to clean up the oil spill, etc]

this altruism, which appears even more special alongside the general evacuation of public social life, is nothing more than building the new world of domination inside the shell of the old. we have nothing to contribute to the world-historical pattern, nothing but whatever foot-dragging we can infect our structural roles with while holding onto whatever bit of sanity we can. a conscious force? please, all armies are the same. a community? what can we share but our own inhumanity? not much. ideological communities are probably the worst, the most plastic in terms of mystifying acts and even the link between act and thought [ie, the link "we are all humanities majors, at university, from suburban so cal", etc]. the secret motor, or at least the grease in the motors of fanaticism all through history: the history made always in this name of "bettering the world".

As a postscript I'd like to answer a question before it is asked. The question is: "Don't you think a descendant of oppressed people is better off as a supermarket manager or police chief?" My answer is another question: What concentration camp manager, national executioner or torturer is not a descendant of oppressed people? -f.p.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

"an attempt to politicize" - this was a political assassination all along, just ask olivia egan-rudolph, the ringleader who has always said the word "anarchists" as though she were talking about feces.

"antipatriarchal jargon" to cover fucked up shit? i guess you're the experts. it is amazing, and appalling, how easily radicals can get away with calling for solidarities of race, gender etc without being called racist, sexist etc only adding maybe a dash of anti-somethingism. as if bigotry were a question of context and not an inherent logic. this is the rhetoric of zionism, of statist-feminism (well in this case it really is) and all other postmodern fascisms.

inflicting trauma is a "new form of accountability"? i guess your ignorance is as vast as your arrogance or maybe you'd recall that "an eye for an eye" is a line from the bible, that foundational text of patriarchy as we know it.

you are disgusting cowards and liars to boot. you worship violence and power like the cops you would love to be. you are not against the world, you are its foot soldiers.

while we're having this mature chat about accountability and playing name games, here are the names of a few people who participated in this. a few calculating organizers and a few more naive followers, i guess, isn't that always the way it is? anyway, bold young activists, secret judges, masked torturers who attack the defenseless in packs of ten, and gloat about it anonymously on the internet later, stand up and be counted for your bravery!

olivia egan-rudolph
angela yonker
kyle thomas
katie woolsey
katy tosh
kelli schall
kelsey berg

you are fascists. this is not a figurative statement and it is not annulled by your presumptive "anti-capitalism" (have we forgotten already what nazi is an acronym for or how mussolini got started?). you act like fascists, you are fascists. i know i'm not the only one who's been silenced or terrorized in this. have fun ruling the roost of the decomposing corpse of a worthless movement that was never going far anyway.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

p.s. to the p.m.

"with friends like you, who needs friends?" -rushmore

an extra-special 'fuck you; die' to my former housemates, not simply for backstabbing me in the most machiavellian way possible, but for expressing their heroic and radical anti-sexism by referring to my partner as 'that slut'. to you and the rest of the lynch mob, i wish every day that i could make you suffer a thousandfold what you have put us through already. it literally sickens me that you walk unharmed through the streets of your seaside idyll, exalting in the nobility of your dance party protests about the humanities department of your university.

"this isn't about politics, this is about you." oh, really? that would be a lot more believable if it wasn't coming from people who are involved in a very specific kind of politics whose ideas and methods prescribe the building of power structures on the basis of isms, identities and oppressions (see perlman's 'on the continuing appeal of nationalism' for a more in-depth analysis of this type of politics). or who objected so strenuously to the critique of identity politics and leftist recuperation, sometimes in fact of their very actions, which has appeared in this blog. in their mobilization of terroristic violence in the name of judgment and punishment, and conveniently in the service of a political purge, they have re-created the state in miniature. a police state which, just like the larger one, must seek out 'perpetrators' to punish in order to legitimize itself. this should have come as no surprise to anyone, least of all me, considering this is exactly what they openly intended from the beginning. and from the beginning i had concerns about being involved with such people; clearly not enough so.

speaking of which i would like to clarify something else; which is that while i do intend to maintain my distance from the anarchist movement (and, again, from all political movements), the anarchists i knew in santa cruz were by and large decent and reasonably intelligent people (although frequently possessed by a naive idealism) who had very little to do with any of these socialist scumbags. so i'm not talking about them. a number of 'anarchists' in the bay though had shown themselves to be little but a different breed of little lenins, so fuck them too.

anyway i suppose it's fitting that it would take an anti-authoritarian descendant of polish jews to point out that 1939 never ended, that left and right, bolsheviks and fascists, are nothing but two sides of the same despicable, authoritarian coin. you are not at all better, less capitalist, less sexist or less cop-like than the rest of this society - only more self-deluded.

let me say this as clearly as possible - since it's really the point - that although i cannot possibly inflict on you what you deserve (nor do i wish to be like you so that i might): provoke me again, fuck with those i love, even though it's manifestly no longer in your interest to do so (you can clearly find other targets, and probably already have; why not?) - but let me be clear, i can and will make things end badly for you as well. i know who you are, i know what you did, and so do you. let's leave it at that.

once again: fuck you, die.

and to everyone else who sat it out but hasn't had a damn thing to say to me since, fuck you for not really being my friends. 'we are your friends'? 'all friendship is political'? you hypocritical pieces of shit don't know the meaning of the word.

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

post mortem

hey, in case anyone is still looking at this, here is what i have to say, nearly a year on.

i have resigned from all politics, 'radical' or otherwise, in disgust. (boo! sell-out!) whatever. there was a convergence of two factors: a growing personal toll and a sharpening sense of dissatisfaction with the paucity of both ideas and potential, a disinclination to play anymore don quixote games, that could only be put at bay so long by any series of new, sexy 'actions' or fairweather rebels.

what i know now is not different from what i knew before, it has only been beaten into my head by a longer string of appalling experiences. unfortunately, i have always apparently had a fondness for learning things the hard way, by attrition you might say. and this is in fact really what connects my personal experience to the bigger picture: because people are like this, not just me. people want to talk about communism and anarchy but rarely transform out of their conditioned roles as leaders, followers, workers, etc, simply because they are not conditioned to. it is too hard; all their experience teaches them otherwise. so we have little megaphone-wielding napoleons hopped up on self-righteousness leading their gangs of bright little idealistic peons, we have the even more self-righteous 'lumpen' dropouts hailing a 'nihilism' that is simply more intense and mindless activism (purely destructive) because apparently the mindless hard work of the activists wasn't mindless or hard enough for them. one of the most amazing things to me about the mercurial explosion of the 'cali student movement' is how so many people started out with this critique of 'activism' (which i sometimes prefer to call 'do-somethingism') and came completely 360 degrees with it. (one can only imagine what disgusting careerist capitalizations will be rationalized by the more explicitly authoritarian crowd, bolsheviks and identity politicians working on their academic tracks and NGO resumes.)

(another particularly embarrassing theme to note in hindsight is all the chest-beating about being the 'futureless youth in revolt' and comparisons to other times and places - as though the least objective reading of this wouldn't have turned up the equally obvious point that we were just students doing what radical students always do in capitalist societies, which is to pioneer new forms of politics, that is to say recuperation; and as if we all haven't always been fucking futureless and this too has yet to provide any particular widespread motivation to destroy capitalism. ah, and so i succumbed to the long tradition of anti-authoritarian entanglements with social movements which is so well known to always end badly...)

whatever, if this needs to be exposed any further it's probably pointless. read some dupont and maybe a little more tiqqun if you want to read politics. you will not find exhortations to start committees and blogs, to hoist banners, organize black blocs and the like. you will not find suggestions that the symptoms of struggle are to be confused with the unfolding of the dialectical processes which are really the only endgame in sight for capitalism. get a job and drag your feet, say dupont. plant a garden and get a gun, say tiqqun. fine advice. we cannot fight the flow of the world on our own, we need to live our lives or we become even more crazy than the 'norms'. the world is most likely totally fucked anyway.

as far as the personal allegations about me - since fuck it, some people who read this know who i am - fuck your gullibility, your scene and your game of telephone, and fuck the conniving, manipulative bolshevik snakes who orchestrated this show of thuggery. why is it that certain keywords like 'patriarchy' allow people to forget everything we know about the authoritarian left? was it not under the similar magic word of 'anti-fascism' that anti-authoritarian militia units were sent to the slaughter by the soviet-controlled republican army in spain? under 'anti-imperialism' that the anti-war bureaucrats have secured support for any number of nationalist gangsters and tyrants? isn't this exactly why they say these words; isn't it reason enough? since their whole ideology and methodology dictates that their first duty is the leashing of radical 'uncontrollables'. 'anarchists must say what only anarchists can say', as dupont have eloquently pointed out, and equally eloquently how disappointingly rare this is. too often we only toe the lines set up by our supposed 'comrades' who are actually our worst enemies, who take us more seriously than we take ourselves. as some looked to expand the struggle outside of the schools, others looked to purge internal 'enemies'. anarchists thrash downtown, an anarchist is beaten by 'feminist' authoritarian marxists. you figure it the fuck out.

anyway, i just used a first person pronoun regarding anarchists, and i guess i philosophically retain a lot of the same views, but i emphatically insist on cutting my ties to any movement, any ism. all 'radical movements' existing within capitalism are symptoms of capitalism and fully contained within its logic; they are only more delusional than most components of the machine, whose only 'revolution' will be the ultimate material failure of the machine itself. this is why i've decided to return to life as a 'private citizen', as a truly autonomous, invisible, whatever. good luck tyrannizing or rioting your way to utopia. my utopia, to paraphrase welcome the plague year, will to be surround myself with the ones i love and hope for the best.

to my friends, you know where to find me. to my enemies, you will most likely never find me, and if you do you will wish you hadn't. it's not in your interest anyway since we no longer have a common field of life and action. good bye.